It's Happening

Wednesday, February 8, 2017: 

Well folks, it's happening. I am following my inspiration and practicing trusting and it's working. I wanted to see if Maui would open her doors to me when I flew back to the nest after my trip, and she is. 

The morning of my 29th birthday, I found out I got a job teaching "Creative Movement" at Horizon's Academy in Kihei, to kids with special needs. I was referred to MAPA by my friend who recently returned to the islands. She happened to be at my Bellydance gig at the Mana Kai. I am getting good feedback from the caretakers that the kids are doing things they normally can't do, smiling more and concentrating better. It makes my heart happy and adds meaning to my life that I am making a difference. Every time I teach, I am reminded of how much I enjoy it and it's simply this feeling of, "YES! This is it." 

The evening of my birthday I was contacted out of the blue by my 3rd grade teacher. She is now the director of "Turnaround Arts Hawaii", Hawaii's first public arts integration school. She said she could introduce me to the director of Maui Dance Council!
http://mauiarts.org/arts_education 

I also got in with Hawaii Princess Party. They are just starting to expand from the Big Island to Maui.
http://www.hawaiiprincessparty.com/

These are my Ariel, Rapunzel and Tinkerbell looks:

In the past I have been motivated by ego, seeking recognition and approval through performing and being on stage. I have been motivated by fear of not having financial security and thinking that the meaning of life is paying your bills. I am really learning to trust that even if I don't know how something will work out, it always does in the perfect time. When fear no longer motivates you, inspiration does. An astrologer told me a big part of my life path and purpose is moving from being a receiver, to a giver. Saturn return, here I come!

I also made a new friend who is my age, lives really close to my street and coincidentally happens to be from Santa Barbara! She is a speech therapist and currently working with an autistic child.

Working With My Inner Child

I've been feeling called lately to work with kids. In my meditation this morning I felt it stronger than ever and took a few angel cards. Sure enough, this is what I got:

The card to the far left is the one I got when I met Doreen Virtue and she said she saw me teaching kids in the future. The card to the far right is about being called to work with kids and do inner child healing.

The thing is I never liked kids that much - I always found them annoying and abnoxious. With Nicole leaving and triggering that wounded child in me, I started making effort to reach out to women, try to make new friends and reconnect with old ones. I met with my friend who's visiting from New York and she said there is a Hawaii Princess Party company that's currently hiring. You basically dress up as a Disney Princess and go to kids parties and entertain. I bellydanced at a Persian one-year-old's birthday party and whenever I dance, the kids are always mesmerised. I also figured my dance space could be used for kids events and classes. In the women's support group I've been going to, it came up that I need to give my inner child more love and attention. The lesson I gained from my experience with Nicole was that I need more fun and play in my life. Being around other children could be a way for me to interact more with own inner child. 

New Year, No Fear!

Saturday, 01/07/16:

Happy New Year! I took a break from blogging for a while... sometimes it's good to just let life happen without documenting it. I've been very focused on improving my dance space (with a lot of help from my husband). It's coming along but I am needing to really practice patience.

A challenge that has come up for me is my deepest wound throughout my life (and probably past lives as well) around rejection and abandonment. This really got triggered around my best friend Nicole leaving and the old pattern of every time I open up to someone, they leave. I knew it would hurt, but didn't know it would hurt THIS much. I see how this wound is also blocking me from being really successful with my business and pursuing my dreams. To be a good sales person for example you have to be open to lots of rejection. And to succeed you need to be willing to fail. The fear of making a mistake or the wrong decision keeps coming up too, which prevents me from fully committing whole heartedly to something. If I kind of commit, I'll kind of get the results I want. My mantra right now is, "New Year, No Fear!"

Feel free to share in the comments section below: What are your fears? What's holding you back from achieving the outcome you want? What resolutions/intentions do you have for 2017?